Thoughts, Randomness, More Thankfulness.

This is the second post of the day, and DEFINATELY not the most important so please read below. I have known that I needed to update you all, but to be honest, I haven't had the words to share. Matt and I have so many things going on right now and we have just felt like we shouldn't burden anyone else with the fears and tears, and then those thoughts of selfishness are reinforced when I think of that sweet baby girl Tuesday. What an emotional wreck I am and in the whole sceam of things, probably have no true reason to be.



Matt got a good report on Tuesday when he went in for his "week after operation" doctor's appointment. His arm is healing well and his therapy has begun...



Matt needs prayers. He is struggling so badly with the possibilities this therapy may create, or take away. He has fears of the future and what may or may not still be an intrical part of his life. He is in such pain. Emotionally and physically. He feels like a failure because he can't work and provide for his family like the man is thought to do. I've never seen him at such a low part in his life and it brings me to tears on a daily basis.



I need prayers. I need to be a strong wife and companion for him now. I am trying so hard, but I feel like I am failing him everytime I cry. I don't do it in front of him, but does he see it anyway? Can he feel it in my heart when he craves to just simply cuddle and that simple task, one of our favorite pasttimes, is so much harder than it has ever been? I know this is so much harder for him than me but yet I feel as though its just too much for me.



More Thankfulness. How do you thank people that are so incredibly special you can't even begin to show them how thankful you are for them? How do you tell them their late night "Spontaneous Pick Matt's Spirits Up Nights" are what you live for now and it's all because of them? How do you tell them their weeky meal nights have been what is keepig you going? How do you tell them that their totally unending friendship is what you have needed for so long to feel complete and whole? How do you just simply say Thank You and KNOW, to the deepest parts of your soul, that they completely know how thankful you are for them? I don't know that I ever will be able to just simply say Thank You and KNOW, but I am sure going to try. Thank your Chris, Tiffany, Kevin, and Alecia. We love ya'll more than words can say and want you to hear Thank You.



I would never want to leave our families out either, so please know we are oh so thankful for them as well. God knew what families we needed in our lives, and man did he bless us beyond belief. Thank Ya'll and we love you more than words can say.



The tears must stop. My wonderful hubby is calling. I am so blessed and I MUST Thank my God now. It's after the school day, and my other life now begins. I must now put back on the strong face and hide my own fears and tears and head home to Matt. Please pray for us. Please pray for him. We love you all, Katie

Prayers, Strength, and Thanksgiving.

How nine days in someone's life can change everything. How disease can turn someone's perfect world into a struggle. How 3 siblings can hurt so bad and be too young to understand it all. How one little girl can be so strong and change the world one treatment at a time and yet still not be able to live. How a family can still be thankful for their last few moments.

I know this all seems so random, but the words spoken cannot describe the pain I feel in my heart for this family. Please read their site and PRAY! I'm not going to give up yet because GOD is in this and HE will see it through. Not until HE says It is done will I give up for Tuesday.
http://www.half12.blogspot.com/

Uh, anyone missing something?

Wow, I couldn't even remember my password to get into this thing :0!!! Yikes, it has been extremely too long! I guess it is safe to say that school has official begun and I am beginning to wonder if I am TOO dedicated?!? Do you think it is possible to be TOO dedicated to your job if it is as important as molding the future of America? Anywho, I have so much to tell you and recap that my heart is starting to race with anxiety because I don't even know where to begin! Yak!!! In a nut shell, life has definately been full of grins, giggles, and fewer headaches than normal :) Although school is crazy busy, and I'm literally spending ALL day at school, from 7 to 7 or 8 everynight, I am REALLY loving this year! I have such an awesome group of kids, a great pair teacher, and a new teacher/friend named Kristen. She was originally from North Dakota but had lived in Chicago for the past 6 years so my nickname for her is Chicago. She has had a really tough time dealing with total culture shocks so it has been nice to be able to be there for her since I wasn't raised in this town either.

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***Attention-We interrupt the waiting game for the much anticipated next post of Katie to inform you that Matthew has earned himself a BROKEN ELBOW!!***

Ok, so gonna have to finish that other draft at a later date. Until then, anyone part of our church family knows that Matthew broke his elbow on January 12. He fell of a ladder at about 12 feet and landed on his right elbow. Surprisingly, concrete doesn't move for a 200 lb. man! We were REALLY blessed that he didn't break something more than his elbow, and THAT we will not soon forget! God is SOOOOO GOOD! Today, January 20th, he had surgery. The radial head, which was holding on by about 1/8 of an inch, was put back together with pins. The doctor said the surgery was a little more extensive than what the xrays showed because when he got in there, he found that Matt's cartilage (spell check?) was shattered. Pieces of it everywhere! There was no saving any of it so it was all cleaned out and the doc had to drill holes into all his bones so that they would create scar tissue to act as cartilage. Because of the lack of cartilage, he faces very possible arthritus and new challenges yet to be seen. The doc said he was bummed to see that when he opened him up :( He will begin therapy next week and will HOPEFULLY only be out of work for 6 weeks. He has done well up until about 30 minutes ago. It is starting to really hurt him and I'm afraid he will be having a long night. Please pray for him because he is worried about the pain, boredom, money, etc. Although I remind him all the time how much worse it could be, it's still hard so PLEASE PRAY!!! Sorry, but I gotta go.... my work has begun! I'll check in later.