And even though, Spring will pass, I can now face the world again with a better attitude and new found strength for tomorrow. Tomorrow may be a day without the camera. 
Kaitlyn, our oldest niece!So I won't go into all of it tonight because we are tired and gotta go to bed, but Matt's second elbow surgery is TOMORROW! We have to be in B'ham by 11:00 a.m. Please pray for him as he is going through the surgery and recoop, and for all of us to have a safe trip! Now, FREEZE! til later...
Have you ever wondered what the sound of speechlessness would sound like?!? Well, let me tell you... I know exactly what it sounds like. Let me replay the situation for you...
Dr. Curtis, "First Xray, Perfect; Second Xray, everything looks great; Third Xray, looks good; Fourth Xray, (SPEECHLESSNESS)!!!"
It's odd for me to have a doctor that is speechless, but we didn't need any words. Let me continue with the story...
We all three stare at the screen, Matt's head hits the wall behind him, and my eyes immediately fill with tears. "Is that another break," I say. "Yes it is." Speechlessness.
To make a really shocking doctor's appointment that was supposed to be another "You're doing great and everything is healing perfectly," story short, Matt has a break on the other side of his radial head. It is much bigger than the previous break and will inevitably lead to another surgery. It is so large that the doctor wonders if a whole piece of his bone is missing. Not sure where that piece of bone is, but yet just another answer to another question that isn't being answered. For example, how did the doctor miss this break during the first surgery? Why didn't he take this particular Xray prior to surgery to go ahead and make sure there weren't any other breaks? And the list continues....
Well, to fast forward from Tuesday until today, Matthew has gotten in with Dr. James Andrews' clinic in Birmingham. Dr. Andrews is a very well known doctor who is sought after and used by many pro athletes throughout the world. Dr. Andrews has looked over his case and decided his colleague, Dr. Clancy, will be best for the job because of the "mystery break" Matt has. Apparently, this part of the radial head is really hard to break and Dr. Clancy is the doctor all other orthos go to when they don't know how to fix the bone that is broken. Leave it to our family to have a break that no one is supposed to have!
We are quite excited to have such a good specialist waiting for us and prepared to take on the apparent "odd" case of my husband's elbow. Our appointment is Monday at 1:00. We know we are in the hands of an awesome surgeon and we are so thankful for that, so please say some prayers of thankfulness and hope that all will be well.
What a serious post that last one was...whew, thank goodness it's over! No seriously, thanks a BUNCH for all your prayers. We have felt them and definately needed them. Thank you all soooooo much!
On a lighter and sweeter note for a belated Valentine's post, these are a few pics I took with my new camera. Thanks Boo for my awesome Valentine's present!!! :) We love our MMA and the sweet treats it gets us! The pics are totally raw and unedited and still very deep and tell such a story. I hope you enjoy them and know that our family hopes you all had a day full of hugs, kisses, hearts, chocolates, and of course, love!
Here are my lovies...
Natasha, or as I have nicknamed her, Na-Na
Our youngest, and such a blessed addition that adds such sweetness to our lives. Especially her sister's!
Sasha
Not everyone finds her to be so adorable, but she's still my precious baby. All 57 parts!
Sebastian
What to say about him! Our oldest but definately still momma's little man.
Last but not least, the love of my life being his back to normal, goofy fun loving self who manages to steal my heart all over again every day!
Thank you God for giving him back to me :)
This is the second post of the day, and DEFINATELY not the most important so please read below. I have known that I needed to update you all, but to be honest, I haven't had the words to share. Matt and I have so many things going on right now and we have just felt like we shouldn't burden anyone else with the fears and tears, and then those thoughts of selfishness are reinforced when I think of that sweet baby girl Tuesday. What an emotional wreck I am and in the whole sceam of things, probably have no true reason to be.
Matt got a good report on Tuesday when he went in for his "week after operation" doctor's appointment. His arm is healing well and his therapy has begun...
Matt needs prayers. He is struggling so badly with the possibilities this therapy may create, or take away. He has fears of the future and what may or may not still be an intrical part of his life. He is in such pain. Emotionally and physically. He feels like a failure because he can't work and provide for his family like the man is thought to do. I've never seen him at such a low part in his life and it brings me to tears on a daily basis.
I need prayers. I need to be a strong wife and companion for him now. I am trying so hard, but I feel like I am failing him everytime I cry. I don't do it in front of him, but does he see it anyway? Can he feel it in my heart when he craves to just simply cuddle and that simple task, one of our favorite pasttimes, is so much harder than it has ever been? I know this is so much harder for him than me but yet I feel as though its just too much for me.
More Thankfulness. How do you thank people that are so incredibly special you can't even begin to show them how thankful you are for them? How do you tell them their late night "Spontaneous Pick Matt's Spirits Up Nights" are what you live for now and it's all because of them? How do you tell them their weeky meal nights have been what is keepig you going? How do you tell them that their totally unending friendship is what you have needed for so long to feel complete and whole? How do you just simply say Thank You and KNOW, to the deepest parts of your soul, that they completely know how thankful you are for them? I don't know that I ever will be able to just simply say Thank You and KNOW, but I am sure going to try. Thank your Chris, Tiffany, Kevin, and Alecia. We love ya'll more than words can say and want you to hear Thank You.
I would never want to leave our families out either, so please know we are oh so thankful for them as well. God knew what families we needed in our lives, and man did he bless us beyond belief. Thank Ya'll and we love you more than words can say.
The tears must stop. My wonderful hubby is calling. I am so blessed and I MUST Thank my God now. It's after the school day, and my other life now begins. I must now put back on the strong face and hide my own fears and tears and head home to Matt. Please pray for us. Please pray for him. We love you all, Katie
How nine days in someone's life can change everything. How disease can turn someone's perfect world into a struggle. How 3 siblings can hurt so bad and be too young to understand it all. How one little girl can be so strong and change the world one treatment at a time and yet still not be able to live. How a family can still be thankful for their last few moments.
I know this all seems so random, but the words spoken cannot describe the pain I feel in my heart for this family. Please read their site and PRAY! I'm not going to give up yet because GOD is in this and HE will see it through. Not until HE says It is done will I give up for Tuesday.
http://www.half12.blogspot.com/
Wow, I couldn't even remember my password to get into this thing :0!!! Yikes, it has been extremely too long! I guess it is safe to say that school has official begun and I am beginning to wonder if I am TOO dedicated?!? Do you think it is possible to be TOO dedicated to your job if it is as important as molding the future of America? Anywho, I have so much to tell you and recap that my heart is starting to race with anxiety because I don't even know where to begin! Yak!!! In a nut shell, life has definately been full of grins, giggles, and fewer headaches than normal :) Although school is crazy busy, and I'm literally spending ALL day at school, from 7 to 7 or 8 everynight, I am REALLY loving this year! I have such an awesome group of kids, a great pair teacher, and a new teacher/friend named Kristen. She was originally from North Dakota but had lived in Chicago for the past 6 years so my nickname for her is Chicago. She has had a really tough time dealing with total culture shocks so it has been nice to be able to be there for her since I wasn't raised in this town either.
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1 week, 2 weeks, 3 weeks
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4 weeks, 5 weeks
***UH OH!!!***
***Attention-We interrupt the waiting game for the much anticipated next post of Katie to inform you that Matthew has earned himself a BROKEN ELBOW!!***
Ok, so gonna have to finish that other draft at a later date. Until then, anyone part of our church family knows that Matthew broke his elbow on January 12. He fell of a ladder at about 12 feet and landed on his right elbow. Surprisingly, concrete doesn't move for a 200 lb. man! We were REALLY blessed that he didn't break something more than his elbow, and THAT we will not soon forget! God is SOOOOO GOOD! Today, January 20th, he had surgery. The radial head, which was holding on by about 1/8 of an inch, was put back together with pins. The doctor said the surgery was a little more extensive than what the xrays showed because when he got in there, he found that Matt's cartilage (spell check?) was shattered. Pieces of it everywhere! There was no saving any of it so it was all cleaned out and the doc had to drill holes into all his bones so that they would create scar tissue to act as cartilage. Because of the lack of cartilage, he faces very possible arthritus and new challenges yet to be seen. The doc said he was bummed to see that when he opened him up :( He will begin therapy next week and will HOPEFULLY only be out of work for 6 weeks. He has done well up until about 30 minutes ago. It is starting to really hurt him and I'm afraid he will be having a long night. Please pray for him because he is worried about the pain, boredom, money, etc. Although I remind him all the time how much worse it could be, it's still hard so PLEASE PRAY!!! Sorry, but I gotta go.... my work has begun! I'll check in later.
